Hi peeps! Yesterday Heather and I went crazy at Ikea and I filmed a video! :
Crashing Ikea with my BFF
Watch it! It's funny!
After Ikea we went to this place called Hana cafe cause being broke did not keep us from spending money like we own it. The service is meh the waffle and the tea also meh :/
Picture time! :
Ikea
Is it me or are Ikea dolls kinda ugly
Acting like we're high class
(In reality we crashed around at Ikea for hours but left the place empty handed)
Waffle (meh)
This mixed berry tea is also meh
The cake is not bad but costs NT$90, Starbuck's cakes are better and only costs NT$80 or even less.
Conclusion : Hana cafe is not worth spending almost 300 for an afternoon tea. And the waitress gave Heather an attitude when Heather asked if what they gave her is waffles cause she ordered pancakes and she specifically pointed at the name on the menu. But the waitress said they won't change for her cause they already confirmed the orders with her before serving. But both of us don't remember her confirming AT ALL. And in Taiwan most places call waffles and pancakes "hot cakes" so it's really hard to order the right ones.
Hi guys! I've been bored at home (I don't know how many times I've said that. In Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Youtube, and now my blog) so I made two videos. The cup song and Lady Gaga skeleton head transformation. Actually the cup song video I made last week but I'm only blogging about it today. So anyways, check out the videos! :
The Cup Song
Lady Gaga Skeleton Head Transformation
The transformation video is not exactly a transformation video but just a vlog. After the extreme make up I had to scrub my neck with lots of tissue paper for the make up to come off cause for some reason the cleansing oil worked for my face but not my neck. And now my bathroom sink and floor became black from all the eye liner and eye shadow. So more scrubbing for me!
And now some photos that I didn't share anywhere else :
Hey guys!!!
Yes I know I've been playing dead. But FINALLY I've dragged my lazy ass up to make a video blog! First time in my life! I've tried to make vlogs lots of times but I'm really camera shy so I never have the confidence to post it up on youtube (and there are a lot of crazy ass rude inhuman people on youtube....well all over the internet but mostly on youtube) and I always look awkward in videos and some people said that my voice is weird and that I sound like a guy and that I have huge mouth and teeth. But I've decided to screw it and just do what I want.
So here you go guys. My first ever vlog.
I was actually planning on posting this blog post on Monday but Youtube wouldn't let me upload the video. So I uploaded the video on Wednesday but when I try to post it on my blog they couldn't find the video. So finally I got my blog updated today. I'm thinking of making more vlogs like maybe just random going out with friends and take videos. But I dunno I'm not so good at this and I'm shy so we'll see.
Hi again! It's been a long time since I last made something so here's a short post about what I made last night :
Roll Cake
What is this?
Roll cake!!! 8D (I'm retarded)
I learnt how to make these from a book about miniatures.
This roll cake just looks so cute that I had to make them! The ones in the book looks cuter and much more realistic though. But the author's an expert that's why she can publish a book right? I like the white one more than the chocolate one cause I think the chocolate looks too big and a bit weird. What do you think?
I'll be making a strawberry one next! Stay tuned! 8D
Hi! As promised, here's a nerdy photo of my interview outfit :
It was my nerd day
I'm sorry I didn't take any photos of the three Universities I went. The schedule was very tight and I was very nervous preparing for the interview so I didn't really have any time.
OK here's a photo of the train ticket for me and my mum :
This University I'm going to aim for is called Tamkang University (淡江大學)
The school is very far away from my home and it's on a very lonely and secluded mountain. All students are required to stay in school at all times (you have to get permission from school to leave the school campus). Year 1 and 2 students are required to live in dorms. Year 3 students are required to study abroad in other countries, otherwise you can't graduate (like WHAT?!?!). Year 4 students travel back to Tamkang and continue your studies here. More freedom cause you don't have to live in dorms anymore but the school is really high on top of the mountain and the only source of transportation is the school bus which is not available everyday. So unless I be like Tarzan and live in the woods on the mountains and make some animal friends and eat bugs or grow wings and fly to school everyday, living in the dorms would be the only option.
Altogether, this school is quite strict and I'll become a nun once I graduate but atleast I got a University and it's quite a good one too so I'm grateful.
Bought this cute soap from a University after the interview
I'm officially the laziest person in the world! When's the last time I blogged? Heck I don't even remember! Anyway, just to update you guys on what's happening in my life :
University
Entrance exam was over (months ago) and the results came out. I didn't do really good but then what do you expect from a person who's lazy and slacks a lot right? I still used my results to apply to 6 Universities and I passed three of them. BUT! It's not over. Now I have to worry about interviews which is happening......tomorrow. Yeah tomorrow. It's only an interview for one of the Universities, the two others will happen on 13 this month. You should totally see what I'm wearing for the interviews. I haven't take pictures yet but I might tomorrow if I have the time and I'll tell you about it on my next blog post (hopefully won't have to wait for so long like this one).
Heartbreak
(Yes I'm still talking about this)
I mentioned on my last blog post about how I'm finally feeling better and moving on and stuffs right? OK, I AM feeling better. And I AM moving on (sort of). But I cannot say that I completely have no feelings for him anymore. And when I was writing the last post, I had no idea, no idea at all. It won't be easy. It's still not so easy but it is MUCH better than when it first started hitting me. When it first started, I cried like a hungry baby asking for milk. I cried at random times. I cried everyday which never happened before except the time my parents got a divorce and I missed my father so much. On my last post I did felt better. But I haven't moved on, not even close. But I didn't cry (atleast not that much anymore). To be honest until now I still haven't moved on. If someone comes and ask me "Are you still in love with that guy?" I would say "Sadly yeah". But I have to say the feelings are not so strong anymore. I don't know, some girls would love a guy for years. But for me, I guess I'm the kind that move on fast (this is fast already na). It hasn't even been a year, I think only 6 months that I fell in love with him? OK that's kinda long. But anyway my whole point is that I still like the guy but the feelings are not so strong anymore 'cause I've been waiting for so long. I think the only time I can completely move on is after we graduate and we're not gonna see each other again. We will probably meet again but that'll be very very rare.
The Ex Girlfriend
You might not understand some of the things I write in this section. I guess I'll tell you a bit about the situation. This guy I'm in love with is still madly in love with his ex girlfriend (rolls eyes). And this ex girlfriend never got over him too (rolls eyes again). The ex girlfriend has been secretly using the guy's facebook to see what he's up to and read his conversations. Dude that's even worse than stalking. So of course she saw the flirty conversations I had with the guy and kicked up a big fuss over it. At first I never really have much grudge or anger towards her 'cause.....I dunno. I mainly blame the guy 'cause he's the start of this mess. But last night I thought about all the stuffs that's happened and I just suddenly felt a huge wave of anger. This section is just gonna be me having a huge rant over her so if you're not interested or don't wanna see lots of vulgarities then just skip this part.
First of all, you have no right to be angry with me. If you can't accept the fact that your EX boyfriend is gonna be flirting with some other girls AFTER you guys BROKE UP. Then bitch you shouldn't even be in a relationship in the first place. And wow what the fuck you actually HACKED your ex boyfriend's facebook and see all his secrets and read all his conversations?! Bitch that's even worse than just stalking him on facebook. You're angry with me and him for flirting? Bitch he should be angry at YOU for hacking his facebook account. Don't you know what privacy is? Maybe if we hack YOUR facebook account we'll be seeing you sexting with other random guys. How would you like that?
Secondly, you accuse ME of glaring at YOU? Bitch that day at 後門 when I turned back I catch YOU glaring at ME! And then you say I glared at you that day in the library, which I didn't even. And I even turned away as soon as I saw you so you wouldn't think that I glared at you BUT YOU STILL ACCUSE ME?! If I remember when I turn and saw you, YOU were staring at ME! What? I can't even look around now? Oh from now on I should always look at my feet and never look up cause the ex girlfriend might be there and she might catch me looking around and accuse me of glaring at her and go back and whine to her ex boyfriend so he can scold me. Oh my god so scary I should never look at her majesty the ex girlfriend 'cause she's too high and mighty and so goddamn fucking sensitive that just a GLIMPSE can be misinterpreted as a GLARE. Sensitive much? Poor girl must have such low self confidence (rolls eyes).
Lastly; this is what pisses me off the most, you showed my FRIEND the conversations I had with him? And God knows who else. Bitch. BITCH! Let me tell you, I know something about you so fucking embarrassing that will have you pee in your pants and fly back to where you came from to hide under you bed and never come out until you rot in there. Again don't you know what privacy is? Oh the ex girlfriend doesn't know what privacy is and doesn't care so I should tell the whole world that she loves fingering and she's a cold tuna who only lays there and does nothing. YOU LIKE THAT?!
I only put up with you because of him. I don't understand how he can still be madly in love with someone so ugly (your face looks so huge and you got no eyebrows bitch) and so bitchy (getting angry with a girl who's flirting with your EX boyfriend and not knowing what privacy is). If I get one more bitchy from you then I'm gonna take action and I mean it.
OK enough with the wordy stuffs. Now's on to the photos!
Jaga Pokkuru
I've heard about them before but never really tried one. They're really delicious!
The mails I got from the three Universities. The first official mail I've ever got in my life.
This fun post-it notes I bought from a place called "breeze plaza"
It's so cute and weird that I couldn't help it.
And I found my old photos. Me in my unglam years.
Heather couldn't stop laughing lol.
OK too ugly that I have to post this before and after photo again.
And some more miniatures I made.
Not long after using this new phone cover I had to peel them all off again cause they're so damn easy to break. The clay I bought is not so good.
This strawberry gummy candy I also bought from "breeze plaza"
I've always wanted to try macarons and I finally got to try two on my winter holidays!
They're really yummy! But so expensive :/
More hauls :
I bought these from a place where they sell stuffs to people who open shops. Get what I mean? It's like the stuffs there are much cheaper than other places.
Caviar nails are really popular lately so I've bought some to try.
These looks like sprinkles so of course I had to buy them!
A Japanese fruits jelly.
Don't they look yummy? They are and I couldn't stop eating them.
Hello my friends! If there's still anyone who still wants to read my blog anyway.
I haven't blog for AGES! And I do have a reason for that. A very corny cheesy reason but it's a reason none the less. And I'll be telling you that reason later on in this post! For now, let's update on what has happened or happening in my life (very wordy post with little pics! So be prepared!) :
University Entrance Exam
I've just had my big entrance exam on Sunday and Monday. I didn't study at all 'cause this exam just isn't that important for me. We have two entrance exams and the second one is my goal so this one that I just finished is not really important so I couldn't be bothered. But my mum takes it seriously so I had to pretend to study when I'm actually slacking big time.
Me and Heather at the school in which the exam was held
It was finally the last day of exam so we decided to cam whore. But people kept on popping up in our photo so I decided to just censor them out later.
And you'd think that now I'm surely gonna start studying for the next more important exam right? WRONG! I still can't be bothered. I'm like that last exam just ended, please give me a break. It's winter holidays now! But my mum still kept on nagging at me for not studying right after I came home from the entrance exam and I'm like I NEED A BREAK GOD DAMN IT!!! I know you're like "break for what? You didn't even study and was slacking big time" actually I just need a break from all the stress, pretend study, text books, and my mum nagging at me 24/7.
Winter Holidays
Only thing I can say about this year's winter holiday is :
Really damn boring. I'm grounded for 6 months, so basically I can't go anywhere. Though I can if I really want to. My mum's out working for the whole day on weekdays so I can sneak out of the house. But the problem is : go where? Heather's grounded too. And her family's sick so she has to take care of them. I can't go to her house cause her mum's home. I don't want to go to Ximending alone cause seriously, how lonely is that? My house is near the night market but obviously, night markets open at night right? And my mum comes home at night so yeah.
So basically, my winter holiday life goes like this everyday :
*wake up
shower
computer
eat
computer
shower
eat
TV
sleep
Repeat *
It's like this everyday. I guess it's peaceful? But not exactly either. Which brings us to the next thing I'm gonna share with you guys :
Heartbreak
CORNY CHEESY MOMENT!!!
OK, so I've been through a major heartbreak recently. And I don't want to sound like a girl trying to act so emo and talk like she knows all the philosophy of love and stuffs. But let's just say I fell in love with the wrong guy at the wrong time. He kept on hurting me without even realizing it.
I used to hear a lot of stuffs people say about heart breaks, but I never understand them. I thought that maybe they're just being dramatic. But now I truly understand. I felt like someone punched me in the stomach and the pain just gets worse. I felt embarrassed, low and worthless. I felt used, taken for granted and then thrown away. I felt like I don't deserve any good things in the world. I couldn't stop thinking about him, wondering what's not good enough about me. I kept getting teary or crying or feeling down at random times. I'm sure I drove Heather and Michael crazy by never stop talking about him. Both of them tried to knock some sense into me but with difficulties. I was blocking off any form of sense completely.
For a long time I didn't feel like doing anything. I was at the point where I hated everything and everything just seemed boring and pointless to me. I couldn't bring myself to do anything. That's why I hadn't blog for so long. I could relate myself to any sad love song but role my eyes every time I hear a happy love song. I completely lost myself. Even Heather couldn't exactly understand me, and that's saying something considering we're always together and we know each other so well, we could tell when the other bff is gonna fart. I'm not lying.
Until one day I just went and told the guy that I liked him. He flipped out. But to my surprise, he gently rejected me. He told me he's in love with someone else. He said we can still be friends. I told him he's been hurting me since a long time ago and he said sorry.
While on my way home, I got teary. But at the same time I felt relieved and awake. I felt like a weight has lifted from my shoulders and I can finally let go, move on and go back to being myself again.
I don't know what caused this feeling of relief. Might be the clear realization that he's not gonna love anyone other than the girl he's in love with. Might be my feelings that I finally let him know and the words of rejection he gave me. Might be the "we can still be friends". Might be the whole closure thing we had. But what I know is, it's time to put a stop to this madness. And though at times I still check if he's on facebook, what's he up to lately. Did he call or had he texted me? Will he stop talking to me anyway despite what he said. I realized that I just don't care that much anymore. I've started wanting to cook to try something new, do chores to make my house look fresh, play sports to get back in health again, and make my clay food stuffs to create new things that I can be proud of. I just want to keep myself busy. I've started to become happy again.
I can't say I'm completely fine now, but I'm healing.
And I still end up posting shit loads of cheesy corny stuffs anyway :/ whatever
And right now my winter holiday life routine has changed to :
wake up early (around 9-10 o'clock)
go walking / jogging in the park
shower
cook
eat
computer
shower
eat
making clay stuffs / knit
read novels
sleep at 11 pm
Not much change, but at least it's better than before.
And by the way, right now I'm in love with this song :
"Girl on Fire" by Alicia Keys ft. Nicki Minaj
This song just......I dunno, makes me feel strong and better after what happened.
And I like the lyrics too :
[Nicki Minaj]
Spirit of Marilyn calling me, audibly
Bawling she, said that she would never leave
Continued to torture me
Telling me to come with her
Underneath my comforter
And she brought a gun with her
Pills and some rum with her
Took me on the balcony telling me to jump with her
Yeah I’m in the ghost but I ain’t doing stunts with her
I ain’t tryna be that haters wanna see that
But I got ‘em aggy cause I win the gold like Gabby
[Alicia Keys]
She’s just a girl and she’s on fire
Hotter than a fantasy, longer like a highway
She’s living in a world and it’s on fire
Fill with catastrophe, but she know she can fly away
Oh, she got both feet on the ground
And she’s burning it down
Oh, she got her head in the clouds
And she’s not backing down
[Chorus]
This girl is on fire
This girl is on fire
She’s walking on fire
This girl is on fire
[Alicia Keys]
Looks like a girl but she’s a flame
So bright she can burn your eyes
Better look the other way
You can try but you’ll never forget her name
She’s on top of the world
Hottest of the hottest girls say
Oh, we got our feet on the ground
And we’re burning it down
Oh, got our head in the clouds
And we’re not coming down
[Chorus]
This girl is on fire
This girl is on fire
She’s walking on fire
This girl is on fire
[Alicia Keys]
Everybody stands as she goes by
Cause they can see the flame that’s in her eyes
Watch her when she’s lighting up the night
Nobody knows that she’s a lonely girl
And it’s a lonely world
But she gon’ let it burn baby burn baby
[Nicki Minaj]
Dear God, If you’re here God
Make the fire disappear when they stare God
Take away my fear when they interfere God
Do you fear God? Cause I fear God
And in my backyard, that’s a deer, God
And that’s a horse ranch
And to my core fans keep repping me
Do it to the death of me
X in the box cause ain’t nobody checking me
[Chorus]
This girl is on fire
This girl is on fire
She’s walking on fire
This girl is on fire
Oh, oh, oh…
She’s just a girl, and she’s on fire
Ironic. I still remember while shopping with Heather, the store was playing this song and I was like "what a song" and Heather was like "She's on fire then help her la! Still sing"
HAHA we were two silly girls.
Oh and Heather has a new video! And I'm in it! Check it out!
And I realize I kept giving the evil eyes AGAIN! Why?! I never meant to! I'm not that unfriendly ok? I dunno why I keep doing that either :(
