Let's Try Again

It's been over a year since I paid any attention to my blog at all. I'm not gonna lie, the reason is because I feel that my blog is something of an embarrassment. Just read any of my old posts and you'll know what I mean. Even my blog design was embarrassing.The thing is I started blogging when I was in high school, around 17 years old, when I was as bratty as I could be. You know that awkward high school phase when you're not a grown up yet, but you keep thinking that you are and desperately try to show it, and ended up doing all sorts of stupid things instead? I was at that phase, but mine didn't stop once I got to college and dragged on all the way until junior year. So my blog posts, much like me in person, ended up being real bratty, real cringey, and real embarrassing. I just wouldn't grow up.

Then I stopped blogging, and when I look back at my old posts I would cringe horribly at my past self. I ended up avoiding my blog entirely, it was too much. 

The last time I posted anything was back when I was 21 years old. Now I'm 23, in my senior year at college, and I am surprised at myself for how very different I am now compared to just a year ago. The 21 year old me was still a kid who refused to grow up. Now I'm 23, and I finally got my life together, planned and organized, and has finally stepped into adulthood. Kinda late, but here I am. Which is why I've decided to blog again. I feel that since I am in a much better place and have a more mature mind set now, I probably wouldn't embarrass myself anymore. Let's hope I'm right.

I won't say that I'll blog regularly, let's be honest I probably won't. But at least I know that I have a place for me to share whatever I want whenever I want. My blog is going to be completely random, random topics at random times. It's just going to be about my life and such. I guess you can say it's sort of like the digital version of my notebook that I take every where with me.

I was very tempted to delete all my old posts and get a fresh start, but I have decided to leave them be. I'll keep them as a reminder of how much I've grown and changed throughout. 

So there you have it. I'm back, and I'll behave better this time.😊